Almost back on track with my training schedule, in the last 2 days I ran about 15 miles for the week 24 so that's about where i left off when I hurt my knee. I haven't been stretching like I should and I can feel it. Still doing my strength and core exercises so that's good?
Sometimes I feel like whipping yourself into shape should be just as easy for your mind. some people lose themselves while on a run or a ride, not me. my mind kinda goes blank and i focus on the words of the songs on my ipod. my mind will run a bit and thoughts will cross my mind, but i don't have these epiphany moments or anything.
pets.
they get it, they love you no matter what and they form a bond with you in such a short time. a person can feel just as strongly about a pet than they can about a human. the loss of such pet can be devastating, life changing. they do love you unconditionally.
looking forward to this week with my sister and niece and taking things as they are.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Rain, Rain Go Away
After taking about a week off, and easing back into the running my knee is feeling better. It is not 100% yet, but I can go 5 miles without it starting to hurt. by next week i hope to back on schedule, but I am not pushing it that's for sure.
I do not have a race until the end of July which kinda sucks, but I can't really fit anything else in! We did a nice bike ride this past weekend with the kids, it was the Trek 100. We all did the 19 mile bike ride. Amelia did awesome, she was flying past us at times and she has so much strength and she has so little confidence. On the way back she was getting a little cocky and she fell in the gravel and skinned her knee, after a pretty big cry fest she was back on the bike and we made it back.
The weather is crap today, I am going to put off running till this afternoon with the hopes that the rain stops and the temp soars. (fingers crossed) I do not want to run on the treadmill that hurts my knee the most.
The kids are out of school and in summer school now till after the 4th of July. That is nice for everyone, and Amelia gets to stay here instead of going to her dads, we all like that~
I do not have a race until the end of July which kinda sucks, but I can't really fit anything else in! We did a nice bike ride this past weekend with the kids, it was the Trek 100. We all did the 19 mile bike ride. Amelia did awesome, she was flying past us at times and she has so much strength and she has so little confidence. On the way back she was getting a little cocky and she fell in the gravel and skinned her knee, after a pretty big cry fest she was back on the bike and we made it back.
The weather is crap today, I am going to put off running till this afternoon with the hopes that the rain stops and the temp soars. (fingers crossed) I do not want to run on the treadmill that hurts my knee the most.
The kids are out of school and in summer school now till after the 4th of July. That is nice for everyone, and Amelia gets to stay here instead of going to her dads, we all like that~
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Truly Accepting the Things I Cannot Change
No matter how hard we try there are things that are out of our control. Things that we have no say in, things that happen no matter what. A couple of days ago I got that piece of information that I had been waiting for. I knew it was inevitable and it was just a matter of time before it happened. There are others who were still in the "if" stage, believing that it wouldn't happen again. I knew better. Sometimes there are things that just don't get better, the person/thing is so far damaged beyond repair that the only humane option is the end. But the tricky part is when the people affected are so concentrated on the hope, that they can't see the pain and refuse to believe the end is the result.
Hope is strong, it can get you through many things and give you something to hold on to when everything else has failed. Hope is a death sentence as well, you get stuck in the illusion of what the truth is and reality becomes a blur. The truth hurts. Is hope some kind of a lie we say to ourselves to avoid the truth that bad things happen? They say that honesty is the best policy. does that apply to the ones we love, we care about? The little white lies, the half-truths and even the straight out omissions of the truth, do they come with a cost as well?
At some point in ones life there is a line drawn, not a line you can see, but it is so real that you can still trip over it. There is a time that comes that hope is no longer an option, it becomes a thing of the past, a distant memory. A tie is cut and a line put in it's place, the line of protecting yourself and letting a person you love go. Don't get me wrong that is a hard thing to do, to put yourself before others, to be selfish. but really who so we really have besides ourselves? Who is going to hold you accountable for your own actions, who is going to be there when no one else is?
I drew that line along time ago, it was not an easy decision, but I knew it was the right one. Me, Myself, and I were more important than the woman who was supposed to be my mother. Living in a world of secrecy and lies, love and hate, uncertainty and despair was over. At that moment the weight of worrying was lifted, I was no longer the caretaker and how liberating that was.
That cycle was going to break, right then.
With the events as of late, the news was the same as reading the paper, nothing new, just a different series of events leading up to the fall. The hurt happened when I had to witness the realization in my sister that she now had to draw that line. How can someone who has longed for her whole life to have a mother, now decide by her choice not to have one? It is quite possible that that line cannot be drawn until you are a mother yourself, to feel the bond, the love, and all the possibilities for your child. Not then do you understand that you will NOT be the mother you had. The unspoken vow taken at birth to protect them and give them the life you never had.
In the end it is possible to have good come out of the bad, and hope can shine once again through that promise of a better life.
Hope is strong, it can get you through many things and give you something to hold on to when everything else has failed. Hope is a death sentence as well, you get stuck in the illusion of what the truth is and reality becomes a blur. The truth hurts. Is hope some kind of a lie we say to ourselves to avoid the truth that bad things happen? They say that honesty is the best policy. does that apply to the ones we love, we care about? The little white lies, the half-truths and even the straight out omissions of the truth, do they come with a cost as well?
At some point in ones life there is a line drawn, not a line you can see, but it is so real that you can still trip over it. There is a time that comes that hope is no longer an option, it becomes a thing of the past, a distant memory. A tie is cut and a line put in it's place, the line of protecting yourself and letting a person you love go. Don't get me wrong that is a hard thing to do, to put yourself before others, to be selfish. but really who so we really have besides ourselves? Who is going to hold you accountable for your own actions, who is going to be there when no one else is?
I drew that line along time ago, it was not an easy decision, but I knew it was the right one. Me, Myself, and I were more important than the woman who was supposed to be my mother. Living in a world of secrecy and lies, love and hate, uncertainty and despair was over. At that moment the weight of worrying was lifted, I was no longer the caretaker and how liberating that was.
That cycle was going to break, right then.
With the events as of late, the news was the same as reading the paper, nothing new, just a different series of events leading up to the fall. The hurt happened when I had to witness the realization in my sister that she now had to draw that line. How can someone who has longed for her whole life to have a mother, now decide by her choice not to have one? It is quite possible that that line cannot be drawn until you are a mother yourself, to feel the bond, the love, and all the possibilities for your child. Not then do you understand that you will NOT be the mother you had. The unspoken vow taken at birth to protect them and give them the life you never had.
In the end it is possible to have good come out of the bad, and hope can shine once again through that promise of a better life.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Some Like It Hot
Even though my mind was screaming at me to run, run, run, I had the confirmation that I thought that I needed to rest. That was hard to do, crawling out of my skin actually. I found a sweet lawn project to do(which came with a sweet sunburn) and rested.
Yesterday Roger and I were signed up for a 5k race, the Susan G. Komen race for the cure. His first ever 5k race and mine after not running in almost a week. It was good, hot, but good. My knee felt fine and I was so happy to be running, most of you will understand that feeling. I didn't want to stop at the 3mile marker, and I got in under 24minutes. My knee is sore today, which I fully expected but I feel good. I have a good plan to ease back in this week, I know that if I push too hard, I will re hurt myself or make the knee worse. So I'm gonna suck it up and go slow.
Ride the Drive is today and that is an awesome kick off to Madison's bike to work week, which I plan to do.
Since my focus has not been on my running, I got to cook and bake yesterday for a dinner party we had. Everything turned out awesome, and the company was fantastic. I really do love entertaining.
Yesterday Roger and I were signed up for a 5k race, the Susan G. Komen race for the cure. His first ever 5k race and mine after not running in almost a week. It was good, hot, but good. My knee felt fine and I was so happy to be running, most of you will understand that feeling. I didn't want to stop at the 3mile marker, and I got in under 24minutes. My knee is sore today, which I fully expected but I feel good. I have a good plan to ease back in this week, I know that if I push too hard, I will re hurt myself or make the knee worse. So I'm gonna suck it up and go slow.
Ride the Drive is today and that is an awesome kick off to Madison's bike to work week, which I plan to do.
Since my focus has not been on my running, I got to cook and bake yesterday for a dinner party we had. Everything turned out awesome, and the company was fantastic. I really do love entertaining.
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