Long time my friends.
I ran my first full marathon 10/29/11 called the Haunted Hustle. I ran it in 3:52:23, I was shooting for sub 3:45, but it is OK, it was my first after all. I was expecting to hit the wall, or fall apart after mile 21, but none of it happened. I stayed strong throughout and had a "perfect" race. roger and Amelia were there, and my brother drove up to see me and he found my on the course!
The race was very emotional for me also, I had to stop my self from crying like 4 times.
Recovery has been OK, I took a whole week off from any exercise, Monday I resumed. 4 miles then 3 yesterday along with core and some leg work. I have been having some trouble with my knees so I am trying to strengthen them before i start my training in Jan for the Madison marathon in May.
For all of you who do not know, Friday is a day that I have been looking forward to for along time! 11-11-11, wishes aplenty!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
PArty LiKe It'S 1999
Yesterday was my first half-marathon. This was the race that I have been training for, all my hard work led up to this moment!
Up at 5:30am ready with coffee and my granola, ipod charged; race number, sun glasses, watch= check.
We had all the kids and got them up and everyone out of the house by 6ish for the 7am start time. With 10 minutes before the start everyone in the corrals, stomachs turning with nervousness and excitement, they call a race delay for incoming weather. Seriously.
it was a nasty storm, and after an hour and a half we were lined up and ready to rock. It was still pouring rain and I equipped with only sunglasses as a way to keep the water from my eyes, was soo nervous. I'm in corral F with an estimated finish time of 2 hours, lets do this already!
And we're off, I feel good by mile 3, I was soaked through and my light jacket was no longer protecting me from the rain, it was just making my cold; off it went. The rain stopped and it was warming up and the miles were flying by. I was thinking to myself "wow this is going by fast"
I knew my pace was faster than I had been running and the couple people i had my sights on to beat were far behind me after the first 2 miles.
I planned to take my gel at the half way point of 6.5, and I was to 7 before I was eating it. At mile 10 the kids and Roger literally pulled up 5 seconds before i ran by and I was finally able to toss him my jacket. If he wasn't there soon I swear i was just gonna chuck it aside! I see the 10 mile clock and I was 5 minutes faster than the 10 mile race i ran 2 weeks prior!! That was a great feeling!
Between miles 11 and 12 I could feel myself pushing back against me, my legs resisting. I ate a couple chews and pushed through it, I only had like a mile to go, I can't puss out now!
Also starting about mile 11 there was a woman near me who I vowed to beat, we were neck and neck for those last couple miles and she got all excited at the 13 mile mark, clapping her hands and all. I was like see-ya, seriously sprinted to the end, even with my ipod in i could hear the kids and Roger cheering and yelling at me!
It was the best feeling, finishing strong and harder than i ever have run a race and having my family there to see me.
I get to the results tent and the two people in front of me didn't have finish times on their records and all I could think was, "please let my timing chip have worked".
It did.
net time: 1:46:29
pace: 8:09
5 mile: 40:28
pace: 8:06
rank:552
10 mile: 1:19:56
pace:8:00
rank:541
last 5k:26:44 i knew i was slowing my pr is 23:59
pace: 8:38
rank 515
division place :26
gender place: 119
overall place: 503
I am pretty sore today and i know it comes with the territory, but no resting for me, in 4 weeks I have a half trail run, and 5 weeks after that i am doing a marathon. pretty sure i have caught the running bug and I like it!
pretty sweet that my number was 1999, just sayin'
Sunday, July 31, 2011
hoochie mama
I just had my 10 mile race yesterday and I am pretty happy with the results. I held back a little because I was hesitant of the course going into it blind. I didn't want to "blow my wad" at the beginning and be dead at the end. I finished 11th out of 192 in my age group.
It's 3 more weeks till the race I've been training for, I feel ready and I am anxious to keep training until then. I am signing up for a marathon trail run 2 weeks after the half.
I feel that if a person goes through life worrying about what other people think of them, they must be so miserable. Learning to embrace yourself for who you are and not taking what others think to value is the best you can do. If all they have to do is talk about you, then hey!
To be attacked as a parent and to be told that I am no role model honestly stings a bit, but I know that you cannot reason with stupid.
It's 3 more weeks till the race I've been training for, I feel ready and I am anxious to keep training until then. I am signing up for a marathon trail run 2 weeks after the half.
I feel that if a person goes through life worrying about what other people think of them, they must be so miserable. Learning to embrace yourself for who you are and not taking what others think to value is the best you can do. If all they have to do is talk about you, then hey!
To be attacked as a parent and to be told that I am no role model honestly stings a bit, but I know that you cannot reason with stupid.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
sooo tired
Sorry about the absence, life has been all over the place.
The family and I just got back from the east coast, yes we drove. It took about 16 hours to make the trip. The kids had a great time and the day at the beach was a hit! Family road trips take on a whole new meaning when you are the parent.
My goal was to work out at each hotel we stayed at so i could stay on track with my running. I did run 2 of the days, but only a total of 6 miles; can we say less than ideal!
Yesterday we did a 25 mile bike ride and I was eager to get some exercise in and I knew it would be a nice warm up for my legs. Today was my long run day and I was planning for my 11 mile route. Roger and I relished in the fact that we could lay in bed this morning without rushing so we got up a little later than anticipated. By 8:30am it was already 90 degrees. So we both set out on our respective workouts, he to bike, me to run.
I was stocked with 2 bottles of water, 2 salt tabs, a gel, and some chews. By the 4 mile mark I was hot, I forgot that there is NO shade on the route. I ran out of water with about 2 miles to go and I started to get cold with the sweat. There was one large spot of shade that I stopped in and almost lost it. The last mile home was so slow that I probably could have walked faster.
Tomorrow we fly out to Atlanta and we are staying at this resort with lots of running trails and paths, so I am excited to go and keep up my training routine. In less than 2 weeks I have a 10 miler.
The family and I just got back from the east coast, yes we drove. It took about 16 hours to make the trip. The kids had a great time and the day at the beach was a hit! Family road trips take on a whole new meaning when you are the parent.
My goal was to work out at each hotel we stayed at so i could stay on track with my running. I did run 2 of the days, but only a total of 6 miles; can we say less than ideal!
Yesterday we did a 25 mile bike ride and I was eager to get some exercise in and I knew it would be a nice warm up for my legs. Today was my long run day and I was planning for my 11 mile route. Roger and I relished in the fact that we could lay in bed this morning without rushing so we got up a little later than anticipated. By 8:30am it was already 90 degrees. So we both set out on our respective workouts, he to bike, me to run.
I was stocked with 2 bottles of water, 2 salt tabs, a gel, and some chews. By the 4 mile mark I was hot, I forgot that there is NO shade on the route. I ran out of water with about 2 miles to go and I started to get cold with the sweat. There was one large spot of shade that I stopped in and almost lost it. The last mile home was so slow that I probably could have walked faster.
Tomorrow we fly out to Atlanta and we are staying at this resort with lots of running trails and paths, so I am excited to go and keep up my training routine. In less than 2 weeks I have a 10 miler.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
updated my playlist
Almost back on track with my training schedule, in the last 2 days I ran about 15 miles for the week 24 so that's about where i left off when I hurt my knee. I haven't been stretching like I should and I can feel it. Still doing my strength and core exercises so that's good?
Sometimes I feel like whipping yourself into shape should be just as easy for your mind. some people lose themselves while on a run or a ride, not me. my mind kinda goes blank and i focus on the words of the songs on my ipod. my mind will run a bit and thoughts will cross my mind, but i don't have these epiphany moments or anything.
pets.
they get it, they love you no matter what and they form a bond with you in such a short time. a person can feel just as strongly about a pet than they can about a human. the loss of such pet can be devastating, life changing. they do love you unconditionally.
looking forward to this week with my sister and niece and taking things as they are.
Sometimes I feel like whipping yourself into shape should be just as easy for your mind. some people lose themselves while on a run or a ride, not me. my mind kinda goes blank and i focus on the words of the songs on my ipod. my mind will run a bit and thoughts will cross my mind, but i don't have these epiphany moments or anything.
pets.
they get it, they love you no matter what and they form a bond with you in such a short time. a person can feel just as strongly about a pet than they can about a human. the loss of such pet can be devastating, life changing. they do love you unconditionally.
looking forward to this week with my sister and niece and taking things as they are.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Rain, Rain Go Away
After taking about a week off, and easing back into the running my knee is feeling better. It is not 100% yet, but I can go 5 miles without it starting to hurt. by next week i hope to back on schedule, but I am not pushing it that's for sure.
I do not have a race until the end of July which kinda sucks, but I can't really fit anything else in! We did a nice bike ride this past weekend with the kids, it was the Trek 100. We all did the 19 mile bike ride. Amelia did awesome, she was flying past us at times and she has so much strength and she has so little confidence. On the way back she was getting a little cocky and she fell in the gravel and skinned her knee, after a pretty big cry fest she was back on the bike and we made it back.
The weather is crap today, I am going to put off running till this afternoon with the hopes that the rain stops and the temp soars. (fingers crossed) I do not want to run on the treadmill that hurts my knee the most.
The kids are out of school and in summer school now till after the 4th of July. That is nice for everyone, and Amelia gets to stay here instead of going to her dads, we all like that~
I do not have a race until the end of July which kinda sucks, but I can't really fit anything else in! We did a nice bike ride this past weekend with the kids, it was the Trek 100. We all did the 19 mile bike ride. Amelia did awesome, she was flying past us at times and she has so much strength and she has so little confidence. On the way back she was getting a little cocky and she fell in the gravel and skinned her knee, after a pretty big cry fest she was back on the bike and we made it back.
The weather is crap today, I am going to put off running till this afternoon with the hopes that the rain stops and the temp soars. (fingers crossed) I do not want to run on the treadmill that hurts my knee the most.
The kids are out of school and in summer school now till after the 4th of July. That is nice for everyone, and Amelia gets to stay here instead of going to her dads, we all like that~
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Truly Accepting the Things I Cannot Change
No matter how hard we try there are things that are out of our control. Things that we have no say in, things that happen no matter what. A couple of days ago I got that piece of information that I had been waiting for. I knew it was inevitable and it was just a matter of time before it happened. There are others who were still in the "if" stage, believing that it wouldn't happen again. I knew better. Sometimes there are things that just don't get better, the person/thing is so far damaged beyond repair that the only humane option is the end. But the tricky part is when the people affected are so concentrated on the hope, that they can't see the pain and refuse to believe the end is the result.
Hope is strong, it can get you through many things and give you something to hold on to when everything else has failed. Hope is a death sentence as well, you get stuck in the illusion of what the truth is and reality becomes a blur. The truth hurts. Is hope some kind of a lie we say to ourselves to avoid the truth that bad things happen? They say that honesty is the best policy. does that apply to the ones we love, we care about? The little white lies, the half-truths and even the straight out omissions of the truth, do they come with a cost as well?
At some point in ones life there is a line drawn, not a line you can see, but it is so real that you can still trip over it. There is a time that comes that hope is no longer an option, it becomes a thing of the past, a distant memory. A tie is cut and a line put in it's place, the line of protecting yourself and letting a person you love go. Don't get me wrong that is a hard thing to do, to put yourself before others, to be selfish. but really who so we really have besides ourselves? Who is going to hold you accountable for your own actions, who is going to be there when no one else is?
I drew that line along time ago, it was not an easy decision, but I knew it was the right one. Me, Myself, and I were more important than the woman who was supposed to be my mother. Living in a world of secrecy and lies, love and hate, uncertainty and despair was over. At that moment the weight of worrying was lifted, I was no longer the caretaker and how liberating that was.
That cycle was going to break, right then.
With the events as of late, the news was the same as reading the paper, nothing new, just a different series of events leading up to the fall. The hurt happened when I had to witness the realization in my sister that she now had to draw that line. How can someone who has longed for her whole life to have a mother, now decide by her choice not to have one? It is quite possible that that line cannot be drawn until you are a mother yourself, to feel the bond, the love, and all the possibilities for your child. Not then do you understand that you will NOT be the mother you had. The unspoken vow taken at birth to protect them and give them the life you never had.
In the end it is possible to have good come out of the bad, and hope can shine once again through that promise of a better life.
Hope is strong, it can get you through many things and give you something to hold on to when everything else has failed. Hope is a death sentence as well, you get stuck in the illusion of what the truth is and reality becomes a blur. The truth hurts. Is hope some kind of a lie we say to ourselves to avoid the truth that bad things happen? They say that honesty is the best policy. does that apply to the ones we love, we care about? The little white lies, the half-truths and even the straight out omissions of the truth, do they come with a cost as well?
At some point in ones life there is a line drawn, not a line you can see, but it is so real that you can still trip over it. There is a time that comes that hope is no longer an option, it becomes a thing of the past, a distant memory. A tie is cut and a line put in it's place, the line of protecting yourself and letting a person you love go. Don't get me wrong that is a hard thing to do, to put yourself before others, to be selfish. but really who so we really have besides ourselves? Who is going to hold you accountable for your own actions, who is going to be there when no one else is?
I drew that line along time ago, it was not an easy decision, but I knew it was the right one. Me, Myself, and I were more important than the woman who was supposed to be my mother. Living in a world of secrecy and lies, love and hate, uncertainty and despair was over. At that moment the weight of worrying was lifted, I was no longer the caretaker and how liberating that was.
That cycle was going to break, right then.
With the events as of late, the news was the same as reading the paper, nothing new, just a different series of events leading up to the fall. The hurt happened when I had to witness the realization in my sister that she now had to draw that line. How can someone who has longed for her whole life to have a mother, now decide by her choice not to have one? It is quite possible that that line cannot be drawn until you are a mother yourself, to feel the bond, the love, and all the possibilities for your child. Not then do you understand that you will NOT be the mother you had. The unspoken vow taken at birth to protect them and give them the life you never had.
In the end it is possible to have good come out of the bad, and hope can shine once again through that promise of a better life.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Some Like It Hot
Even though my mind was screaming at me to run, run, run, I had the confirmation that I thought that I needed to rest. That was hard to do, crawling out of my skin actually. I found a sweet lawn project to do(which came with a sweet sunburn) and rested.
Yesterday Roger and I were signed up for a 5k race, the Susan G. Komen race for the cure. His first ever 5k race and mine after not running in almost a week. It was good, hot, but good. My knee felt fine and I was so happy to be running, most of you will understand that feeling. I didn't want to stop at the 3mile marker, and I got in under 24minutes. My knee is sore today, which I fully expected but I feel good. I have a good plan to ease back in this week, I know that if I push too hard, I will re hurt myself or make the knee worse. So I'm gonna suck it up and go slow.
Ride the Drive is today and that is an awesome kick off to Madison's bike to work week, which I plan to do.
Since my focus has not been on my running, I got to cook and bake yesterday for a dinner party we had. Everything turned out awesome, and the company was fantastic. I really do love entertaining.
Yesterday Roger and I were signed up for a 5k race, the Susan G. Komen race for the cure. His first ever 5k race and mine after not running in almost a week. It was good, hot, but good. My knee felt fine and I was so happy to be running, most of you will understand that feeling. I didn't want to stop at the 3mile marker, and I got in under 24minutes. My knee is sore today, which I fully expected but I feel good. I have a good plan to ease back in this week, I know that if I push too hard, I will re hurt myself or make the knee worse. So I'm gonna suck it up and go slow.
Ride the Drive is today and that is an awesome kick off to Madison's bike to work week, which I plan to do.
Since my focus has not been on my running, I got to cook and bake yesterday for a dinner party we had. Everything turned out awesome, and the company was fantastic. I really do love entertaining.
Saturday, May 28, 2011
No Pain No Gain?
What a week! I tried out my new socks for my early week runs and they were cooler, but it seems like they came with a cost. Runners knee! What a sucky thing, I had to stop short of my run on Thursday which was very upsetting. I had just adjusted my training program to increase milage and add in my 2 new races I signed up for. Also some speed and tempo training, along with less cross training.
I went to the doctor to make sure I hadn't hurt it seriously, ICE was the prescription and to stay off of it. Today its feeling better so I hope I can run tomorrow, it's 9 miles.
On another note, my sister is doing ok, the have told her that the cancer will be dormant for pretty much ever. One doctor wants to make the tumors grow so they can figure out the source then attack both at the same time. It's very time consuming and very costly. She sought a second opinion and they have a new drug that she will take twice a day and it will make her kidneys healthier and work better, but might make her kidneys sore, but healthy. It is not a long term solution, but since she's ok, that seems to be the better option.
A month has gone by and I am still feeling optimistic and positive, for the most part don't even miss it. Yay, me!
I went to the doctor to make sure I hadn't hurt it seriously, ICE was the prescription and to stay off of it. Today its feeling better so I hope I can run tomorrow, it's 9 miles.
On another note, my sister is doing ok, the have told her that the cancer will be dormant for pretty much ever. One doctor wants to make the tumors grow so they can figure out the source then attack both at the same time. It's very time consuming and very costly. She sought a second opinion and they have a new drug that she will take twice a day and it will make her kidneys healthier and work better, but might make her kidneys sore, but healthy. It is not a long term solution, but since she's ok, that seems to be the better option.
A month has gone by and I am still feeling optimistic and positive, for the most part don't even miss it. Yay, me!
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Rapture? What Rapture?
Whew! What a weekend! Lots of live music, and tons of activity. Sometimes there is not enough time in a weekend to get everything done and have quality time together.
I made Saturday my long run day since Sunday was filled with biking. 8 miles I ran, I picked a new route to run, I ran past work, down the hill and back. I got rained on a little, honked at by some bikers, and passed a girl. Since my runs are getting longer I am trying out some different fuel sources. Right now I'm testing the gel market, Hammer and Roctane have both been good to me.
Sunday was the B Cycle launch and it was awesome, such a great way to make Madison more awesome, not sure how much more awesome it can get though!
Today's run was good, tried out the new gear I got this weekend, was a bit sluggish, but got it done. According to my training I am only supposed to be running 4.5 daily, but I've amped it up to 6, my body wants more than that and I feel like I am up for the challenge. It can only make me stronger! I have signed up for two additional races, the Susan G. Komen one in about 2 weeks and the Waunafest Run at the end of July. Day by day I am feeling the improvement in my fitness and it is awesome to see the results that I never thought were gonna come!
I made Saturday my long run day since Sunday was filled with biking. 8 miles I ran, I picked a new route to run, I ran past work, down the hill and back. I got rained on a little, honked at by some bikers, and passed a girl. Since my runs are getting longer I am trying out some different fuel sources. Right now I'm testing the gel market, Hammer and Roctane have both been good to me.
Sunday was the B Cycle launch and it was awesome, such a great way to make Madison more awesome, not sure how much more awesome it can get though!
Today's run was good, tried out the new gear I got this weekend, was a bit sluggish, but got it done. According to my training I am only supposed to be running 4.5 daily, but I've amped it up to 6, my body wants more than that and I feel like I am up for the challenge. It can only make me stronger! I have signed up for two additional races, the Susan G. Komen one in about 2 weeks and the Waunafest Run at the end of July. Day by day I am feeling the improvement in my fitness and it is awesome to see the results that I never thought were gonna come!
Thursday, May 19, 2011
One Day at a Time
That first drink, the hotness of it slowly going down my throat warming my whole body from the inside out. The taste, the smell, the utter joy of it once it touches my lips. I am sure that I literally close my eyes as I sip the dark liquid careful not to burn my tongue. What could this drink be that brings me such pure bliss?
COFFEE!
For as long as I remember I have drank coffee and have enjoyed it so much so, no milk, just sugar or black. For this reason I have decided to give up soda, diet coke specifically. I drink so much coffee that there is no need for added caffeine especially when I am exercising so much. I have come to the conclusion that it will make me drink more water. This indeed has worked for the past 2 months or so......until last night.
I snapped, I was sick of water and had already downed a pot a coffee earlier in the day so i decided to go for it. That case of lime diet coke had been taunting me ...just one, you know you want to....no one is gonna know. I chugged the whole can in probably less than 5 minutes. I'd be lying if I said it wasn't good. It was good, but it was not how I remember it.
I did not crave another one.
The running has been going well, I over did it on Tuesday with a 5 mile run followed by a 4 hour(40 mile) bike ride in 20mph winds. needless to say yesterday was my rest day instead of tomorrow. Today I was going for speed and I did it, 5 miles in 35 minutes, a 7 minute mile!!! It was so nice to not run into the wind.
There is a 5k in two weeks, and couple other bike rides and I want to get in at least 3 more races until the mini. I may have a running partner soon, I am very excited to have him train with me.
until next time my dear friends
COFFEE!
For as long as I remember I have drank coffee and have enjoyed it so much so, no milk, just sugar or black. For this reason I have decided to give up soda, diet coke specifically. I drink so much coffee that there is no need for added caffeine especially when I am exercising so much. I have come to the conclusion that it will make me drink more water. This indeed has worked for the past 2 months or so......until last night.
I snapped, I was sick of water and had already downed a pot a coffee earlier in the day so i decided to go for it. That case of lime diet coke had been taunting me ...just one, you know you want to....no one is gonna know. I chugged the whole can in probably less than 5 minutes. I'd be lying if I said it wasn't good. It was good, but it was not how I remember it.
I did not crave another one.
The running has been going well, I over did it on Tuesday with a 5 mile run followed by a 4 hour(40 mile) bike ride in 20mph winds. needless to say yesterday was my rest day instead of tomorrow. Today I was going for speed and I did it, 5 miles in 35 minutes, a 7 minute mile!!! It was so nice to not run into the wind.
There is a 5k in two weeks, and couple other bike rides and I want to get in at least 3 more races until the mini. I may have a running partner soon, I am very excited to have him train with me.
until next time my dear friends
Monday, May 16, 2011
running on accident?
I have caught the running itch. I mean I have been training for about 4 months now and just recently I have found that I WANT to go run. On my rest day and my short run days, I just wanna go further. So maybe that is why I ran 8 miles yesterday and not 7. Totally didn't see the mile markers on the trail and I got to 4 and realized I just added a mile.
I always in the past had needed gum when i ran, it had to do with my breathing, I would breathe too deep and then concentrate on the dryness of my mouth. I have since stopped my gum dependency. In the world of distance running you need some supplements, I've tried some chews which i liked, who doesn't want to eat fruit snacks while running? yesterday i tried out a gel made by Hammer, I didn't know what to expect, it was like a paste but fruity and it obviously helped cuz when those 8 miles were over I wanted to keep going and I had energy left afterwards.
I was hesitant to go out due to the wind, but I did surprisingly well, 1:10:30 for 8 miles less than a 9 minute mile with a 15-20 mph wind. not too shabby if i do say myself!
Today is a much needed pilates session after my homemade chocolate chip cookies I had for breakfast dunked in steaming hot coffee, mmmmmmm!!
I always in the past had needed gum when i ran, it had to do with my breathing, I would breathe too deep and then concentrate on the dryness of my mouth. I have since stopped my gum dependency. In the world of distance running you need some supplements, I've tried some chews which i liked, who doesn't want to eat fruit snacks while running? yesterday i tried out a gel made by Hammer, I didn't know what to expect, it was like a paste but fruity and it obviously helped cuz when those 8 miles were over I wanted to keep going and I had energy left afterwards.
I was hesitant to go out due to the wind, but I did surprisingly well, 1:10:30 for 8 miles less than a 9 minute mile with a 15-20 mph wind. not too shabby if i do say myself!
Today is a much needed pilates session after my homemade chocolate chip cookies I had for breakfast dunked in steaming hot coffee, mmmmmmm!!
Friday, May 13, 2011
push it reaalll goood
The hot weather is here. So my body has been acclimated to the cooler weather, now I have to get used to the hot weather. I have favorite socks that I wear(not the same pair, but a specific type) and I have realized while running my feet are so HOT! time to look for a thinner sock, ugghhh! Also, I am finding that I am needing to carry water when I normally would not, I knew it would happen just didn't want to yet.
I feel as though my weekly mileage needs to be higher, I know I am only training for a half marathon, but I want to go bigger! I have the running fever! My weekly mileage is about 16-20, I think I want it to be 25-30. After 3 months of training, my body is starting to react, and I can't lie, I think I am starting to like my body for the first time EVER and I am healthy! I have this sense of happiness that I haven't had before, I am making some big changes in my life and I feel greatly optimistic!
so watch out world!
I feel as though my weekly mileage needs to be higher, I know I am only training for a half marathon, but I want to go bigger! I have the running fever! My weekly mileage is about 16-20, I think I want it to be 25-30. After 3 months of training, my body is starting to react, and I can't lie, I think I am starting to like my body for the first time EVER and I am healthy! I have this sense of happiness that I haven't had before, I am making some big changes in my life and I feel greatly optimistic!
so watch out world!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
It's getting hot in HERE
WHEW!!!
Talk about a busy weekend, between the fashion show on friday(which was amazing by the way) and the lovely night out after, Friday ended the week perfectly! The hair, the makeup, the pretty ladies, the wonderful food, amazing clothes, and electric energy put the stamp on a fabulous night. I also conquered something thought to be very difficult and I did it without even blinking an eye. In the moments of anxiety and stomach rumbles it wasn't even a thought, yes it would have calmed my nerves but NO ThANKS was the obvious answer. Man did I feel great, my adreneline was pumping faster than I could handle and i was so proud of myself for the small step in the right direction. Roger had planned a romantic night afterwards, and it was indeed great.
you know when you go to a sporting event and there is that one person who is cheering the loudest and yelling as if the players can hear them? That's me. While at my brothers slow pitch softball tournement i went from sitting on the bleachers covered up with a blanket to standing up cheering on the players in the matter of about 5 minutes.
moms day this year was one of the best, my baby girl let me get in my 6 mile run. It was a PERFECT day to run and I did it in 53minutes, not too bad. and most of all i got QT with my cutie!
alrighty i am off and running(literally, those miles don't run themselves)
Talk about a busy weekend, between the fashion show on friday(which was amazing by the way) and the lovely night out after, Friday ended the week perfectly! The hair, the makeup, the pretty ladies, the wonderful food, amazing clothes, and electric energy put the stamp on a fabulous night. I also conquered something thought to be very difficult and I did it without even blinking an eye. In the moments of anxiety and stomach rumbles it wasn't even a thought, yes it would have calmed my nerves but NO ThANKS was the obvious answer. Man did I feel great, my adreneline was pumping faster than I could handle and i was so proud of myself for the small step in the right direction. Roger had planned a romantic night afterwards, and it was indeed great.
you know when you go to a sporting event and there is that one person who is cheering the loudest and yelling as if the players can hear them? That's me. While at my brothers slow pitch softball tournement i went from sitting on the bleachers covered up with a blanket to standing up cheering on the players in the matter of about 5 minutes.
moms day this year was one of the best, my baby girl let me get in my 6 mile run. It was a PERFECT day to run and I did it in 53minutes, not too bad. and most of all i got QT with my cutie!
alrighty i am off and running(literally, those miles don't run themselves)
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Bike Rides and No Bullshit
Yesterday was so beautiful and I got the pleasure to ride my bike around lake monona with Brando. It was my first attempt and really trying not to get lost in the massive city of monona. We made it and got to have sweet chinese food on the way. can we say score!?
starting the day meeting a woman who is going to be one of the most important people in my life. The journey that I see us going through is going to be amazing and the outcome is going to be life changing. My outlook on life in teh present and in the future is so bright I literally had to put my shades on. I am sooo done with dwelling on the things that have already happened and ready to dive in with no bullshit.
Then after work I get the pleasure of getting my hair did for the fashion show tomorrow night. Ashlee is amazing, some gloss color and I feel like a new woman! I am so excited to be a part of this show, so many amazing woman involved and for such a good cause. And, I'll get all done up and be a show stopper!
Saturday is going to be a great day as well. I get to see my brother play one of his favorite sports: softball. I do always enjoy it, and Roger gets to come and see the all star athlete he is!
starting the day meeting a woman who is going to be one of the most important people in my life. The journey that I see us going through is going to be amazing and the outcome is going to be life changing. My outlook on life in teh present and in the future is so bright I literally had to put my shades on. I am sooo done with dwelling on the things that have already happened and ready to dive in with no bullshit.
Then after work I get the pleasure of getting my hair did for the fashion show tomorrow night. Ashlee is amazing, some gloss color and I feel like a new woman! I am so excited to be a part of this show, so many amazing woman involved and for such a good cause. And, I'll get all done up and be a show stopper!
Saturday is going to be a great day as well. I get to see my brother play one of his favorite sports: softball. I do always enjoy it, and Roger gets to come and see the all star athlete he is!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Crazy....Legs
Saturday was my first race. The forecast was saying rain and wind. I really didn't care about the rain, it's the wind. So, as it turned out no rain, but wind aarrgghhh!
I think about 20,000 people showed up to race, I was racing on a team that donated the cost to the make-a-wish foundation. My wave was section I, semi towards the front. I am all ready for the race. I am layered up, got my ipod, etc. Only to find out that Ipod=dead, go figure. Under layer=too hot. So on my first race I ran with no music and I had to change at the starting line.
I was ready even though I hadn't ran since Tuesday.
Observatory hill was the least of my worries, it was the wind!!! rounding mile 3, I was feeling good, that was the watering hole. I was very hesitant to drink on the run, and at the last minute I grabbed a cup and struggled to drink without splashing myself in the face. Instant side ache that continued into mile 4 and I was going down hard, talk about a dive. I was confused since I run 5 miles all the time with no problem. But by the time I got to 4.5 I was pushing to the finish line. Upon crossing the finish I had no idea what my time was, I was too busy scanning the faces for Roger and the kids.
I was convinced all day I had had my worst run ever. results are in: 42:48, my best time yet!! So needless to say even though it seemed the cards were stacked against me, I still came out on top.
I think about 20,000 people showed up to race, I was racing on a team that donated the cost to the make-a-wish foundation. My wave was section I, semi towards the front. I am all ready for the race. I am layered up, got my ipod, etc. Only to find out that Ipod=dead, go figure. Under layer=too hot. So on my first race I ran with no music and I had to change at the starting line.
I was ready even though I hadn't ran since Tuesday.
Observatory hill was the least of my worries, it was the wind!!! rounding mile 3, I was feeling good, that was the watering hole. I was very hesitant to drink on the run, and at the last minute I grabbed a cup and struggled to drink without splashing myself in the face. Instant side ache that continued into mile 4 and I was going down hard, talk about a dive. I was confused since I run 5 miles all the time with no problem. But by the time I got to 4.5 I was pushing to the finish line. Upon crossing the finish I had no idea what my time was, I was too busy scanning the faces for Roger and the kids.
I was convinced all day I had had my worst run ever. results are in: 42:48, my best time yet!! So needless to say even though it seemed the cards were stacked against me, I still came out on top.
Friday, April 29, 2011
the sun came at just the right time
Upon waking this morning I woke with a sense of urgency, like I was late for something. I turned with the sunshine peeking through the window to see the clock stare at me 6:30am. how lucky was that? I forgot to set the alarm and wake on the exact time I was due to get up.
for the first time in a couple of days I smiled, a real true smile. What made me smile, you ask. the sunshine.
that to me, was a glimmer of hope that things will be OK. It was quite the improvement from the sky high anxiety of the night before.
this journey that I am on, has been kicked into high gear. My biggest fear, that even when I reach my milestones one by one I will still lose everything that I love. How can I not feel that that is my destiny with the way the cards have been dealt?
by trying and me being such a sore loser, that's how~~
for the first time in a couple of days I smiled, a real true smile. What made me smile, you ask. the sunshine.
that to me, was a glimmer of hope that things will be OK. It was quite the improvement from the sky high anxiety of the night before.
this journey that I am on, has been kicked into high gear. My biggest fear, that even when I reach my milestones one by one I will still lose everything that I love. How can I not feel that that is my destiny with the way the cards have been dealt?
by trying and me being such a sore loser, that's how~~
Thursday, April 28, 2011
wandering into unchartered waters
for about 3 months now I have been training for a half marathon. the mini is still not for about 3 more months but I have made huge progress, going from about a 9 minute mile to under 8.
the decision to start this training sort of came from no where, i knew that i wanted to be more fit, have more stamina, and be able to keep up with my athlete of a boyfriend. don't get me wrong was i by no means out of shape, just out of practice. i needed something to grab my attention and give me a swift kick in the ass.
within this process i found out that a demon that has haunted my family for my whole life had returned once again and meant buisness. my sister the unfortunate victim once again has been brave and courageous beyond words. in no way did i think that the big C would attack her again, but here it is. as it destroys her body, her mind and soul just get stronger. it has impacted me more than i thought though. the first time she had it she was a baby and i was 2, and jealous and not understanding of why she got all the attention and i got none. growing up to be each others best friend it's tough to think of what if...
april 27, 2011 will be a day to celebrate for the rest of my life and i am so happy to be starting that chapter! i have the support of my friends and family and here we go..........
the decision to start this training sort of came from no where, i knew that i wanted to be more fit, have more stamina, and be able to keep up with my athlete of a boyfriend. don't get me wrong was i by no means out of shape, just out of practice. i needed something to grab my attention and give me a swift kick in the ass.
within this process i found out that a demon that has haunted my family for my whole life had returned once again and meant buisness. my sister the unfortunate victim once again has been brave and courageous beyond words. in no way did i think that the big C would attack her again, but here it is. as it destroys her body, her mind and soul just get stronger. it has impacted me more than i thought though. the first time she had it she was a baby and i was 2, and jealous and not understanding of why she got all the attention and i got none. growing up to be each others best friend it's tough to think of what if...
april 27, 2011 will be a day to celebrate for the rest of my life and i am so happy to be starting that chapter! i have the support of my friends and family and here we go..........
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